Robin right now food is neither friend nor enemy. It's just sustenance. Little
by little you will regain the ability to eat lots of different foods, but some
favorites might be gone forever. I used to adore anything guava. Have since I
was a litle kid. I loved getting to Florida, our annual vacation. We always took
the train from Chicago. The first morning we were in Florida they served guava
jelly in the dining room. When I moved here I fell in love with another amazing
guava treat. Puff pastries with guava paste in them. I thought I would love it
when I recovered from surgery and could only eat just a little bit. Well, the
only thing guava that tastes remotely good now is guava yogurt. Guava jelly and
pastries sound awful. So while you will regain the ability to eat it may not
always be pre-surgery favorites. I've noticed in your various e-mails that you
worry a lot. All I can say is please don't. Everything is happening right on
schedule and the things happening to you now have
happened to all of us. I promise it gets better but your digestive tract has
just taken a major beating. I think you'd feel lots better if you just tried to
chill a bit more.
Carole
Robin <jkrdrmom@...
Hi,
Day 13 post op today. I woke up after sleeping pretty well last
night. After everyone left I decided to go get my hair cut! Feels
much better now!
They opened a new store next to my beauty shop. Named "Trader Joes"
I know it is a chain and is probably in lots of places. It was "OK",
but I didn't really see anything to exciting. I did buy some protein
bars to try. I got several different brands and flavors. By the
time my haircut was done, of course I was STARVING and I only had my
bottle of water.
I saw so many good yummy things at the store: cookies, candy,
breads, pastries etc..... NOW I can't really eat any of it yet! I
saw a package of cookies and thought, Those peanutbutter cookies look
soooo good. I really wanted one for about 5 seconds. I than decided
that if I bought the whole package (about 10 cookies) I would waste
it becuase I could only eat a couple of bits. None of my kids would
like that kind. At this point eating even 1 normal size cookie would
be a challenge for me. So, I passed on the cookies. Now I don't
even miss it!
I also saw some chocolate candy that looked really good (home made
peanut butter cups). I did buy a small package of those. I "could"
eat one (they are very small) and give the rest to the kids later.
But now that I am home, I don't want any! WHAT's happening to
ME!!!!
My best friend "food" is being a very fickle friend right now.
NOTHING sounds good to eat, so I can't really turn to it when I am
feeling overwhelmed, or tired or afraid, or lonely or excited or any
one of the other MILLION emotions that I used to go to my old best
friend for. Food used to be so loyal and was always there and always
tasted the same and never dissapointed me. NOW where do I go for
that same treatment! I am in a state of confusion! I have so many
feelings to share and no friend to really share them with now. When
I am mad ad the kids or DH or anyone else. I can't turn to food for
comfort. I never really gave me any advise, but at least it was
always available!
Now, I am actually AFRAID of my old best friend. I never know what
kind of effect it will have on my new tummy! Sometimes, it actually
makes my tummy HURT! So far, it really has not been there to comfort
me at all since surgery. I believe my old best friend it trying to
tell me something. I think it is trying to find more friendly
pastures than mine!
I am not really sure what to do now! I need to eat to be healthy. So
far, my friendship with food is very strained and uncomfortable. I
am told that things will improve and I do believe that. I also know
that I don't want to have the same relationship with food as I had
before. I hope to just be able to get along with food and nothing
more! We can still be friendly I hope, but NOT BEST FRIENDS anymore.
I can't picture myself having any other friend though! It is like
losing a diseased arm and trying to pick some other kind of tool to
use instead of it. The arm was so comfortable and easy. The new
tool will probably do just as well, but it is a hard decision to
make.
Well...Today has been an interesting day. I am feel more energy, and
less nausea. I am still tired easily though.
I hope everyone here is having a fabulous day!
Robin G
249/228/130??
day 13 post op